Trista Dawn

A child is born with her mothers beauty and fathers strength inside.
The moment I saw her I lost my heart gave it to her and cried.

To see her settled in her beautiful mothers arms.
Cradled and safe from all of the worlds harms.

To see her play with nothing at all and love away her day.
Hearing I love you mom and dad the best thing she could say.

The first time she stepped and marched on forth into her life.
Stubborn and strong just like her parents brave against all strife.

To walk her to school and see that look of momentary fear.
Those precious moments of letting go that we all hold dear.

Life goes on and as she grows you see her smiling face.
That love for all that stubborn streak that cannot be replaced.

Her first boyfriend that moment were you get to torture the boy.
Expressing that she's daddy's little girl and showing she isn't his toy.

She has a prom you find the shoes and the absolute perfect dress.
You take her out and find it all the parents hopeful quest.

You let her go into the boys care and trust she will be OK.
You have worried your self sick thinking of this day.

She goes to college does real well and the degree holds all it's glory.
This is not the end as some may see but the start of her own story.

She finds a man that wins her heart he smiles as he is down on his knee.
Will he know without a doubt what she means to me?

A flash of time and in the hospital room where a child soon will be.
You and her mother standing tall and proud at the woman you both see.

She is our blessing our tie that binds and holds us together through time.
She never made it to her birth and that is a great and tragic crime.

I listen to music and write these words and into space i try not to stare.
When I would gladly have traded my life for hers it's cruel and so unfair.

I never held her mothers hand when she entered this earth.
I never got to share with the world the announcement of her birth.

Her new and wondrous eyes as she gazed upon her dad.
The most precious little girl that I have never had.

My Promise

You are my morning and you are my night.
My heaven and after life.
Everything that is right.

I finally found you and hold you near.
I am the man that loves you.
The honey to your dear.

There are trials that together we will face.
Stand strong against the tide.
The pain of the past that we can erase.

I will always hold you in my heart.
Cherish each kiss.
Value your caress as I have from the start.

There is nothing that can make me lose my love.
No one to make me leave you.
Not even heaven above.

No matter what has gone wrong for you in the past.
Know that My love.
My feelings for you will always last.

We face the fears we have in this life.
I am your loving husband.
You are my beautiful wife.

There is not much in this world that is true.
Trust in my heart.
I am always here for you.

More than you'll ever know.wmv

a song i wrote

More than you'll ever know by gary sullivan






There was a time when life was lonely
no place ever felt like home
in the darkness I found my way
a love to call my own.

You feel special when love finds you
it's so strange and wonderful
to feel the sun on your heart again
embraced by the light of hope

You came along when i was lost
loneliness was all i knew
in that moment it all fell away
I found my heaven in you

I love you more than you'll ever know
there are no words to say it right
i wish i could just hold you
and make everything alright

I guess i never saw it coming
foolish games and selfish deeds
all at once it all went wrong
I woke up one day and you were gone

I told myself i didn't need you
then one night it all came down
You cried out to me on the line
then I found myself running back to you

I love you more than you'll ever know
there are no words to say it right
I wish i could just hold you
and make everything alright

I never lost my faith in you
even though others say i should
my love for you will never fade away
some feelings you just can't change

I feel your love and all your worries
your trust in me grows so slow
well take another chance on me darling
cause I love you more than you'll ever know.

Letter to a Friend

I hear you and see you. The color of your pain as it carries you through your day. oh how it overwhelms you. You are a warrior poet as you fight on and bring yourself from one task to the next. You are as everyone should be. Determined to move past it all with little complaint. Does anyone else truly see you as I do. Do they know what it means to hurt all over and never be able to rest? No real refuge from it and carrying yourself as if nothing is wrong.

This agony you carry you feel that it is your burden alone. You are wrong. You know better than anyone the blessings that god has given you in this life. He continues to shower you with those blessings. All you have to do is reach out a hand and it will be there for you. To help and make it better. A whisper in the night that brings comfort and releases you from the despair of it all.

You are amazing in every way. To know you is to witness greatness. Gather your strength and walk on down the road just a little further. If you cannot walk I will carry you. If I cannot carry you then I will bring others to help. In the end there will be a valley of hope and happiness for you.

Always remember when you are traveling blind in the darkness that you are not alone. I am with you. I am the rock that holds you up. I am the ocean that hears your cries. I am the wind on the trees that tells your story. I am your friend.

Hope for a Future

Do we dare hope for a future? We find someone so special that it is more than we ever thought to see in this life. the emotions and the excitement you feel when you talk to them. The possibilities and colors you never thought could be open to you. Is it wrong to get excited and to hope that this time you can do it different. That maybe you really have found that special someone? What do they think and what do they feel when they speak to you? Do you make there day better just by reminding them that you are in their life?

Questions like these rarely cross my mind. I write allot about what I hope to find someday and what I want to give to another. But what do I do when I think I might have found it? How do you handle it without ruining it. I know that I am willing to do whatever it takes to have a relationship with the type of person I'm thinking of. But what about them? I guess only time will tell but damn time takes forever. It would just be nice if two people to keep it simple and stop with the doubt and the worries. But I guess it affects all of us.

Letter to my daddy

Hello Daddy,

This is your son did you forget me daddy? I am the boy that kept you captivated with my little smile. The wiggle worm that made you laugh. That pink bundle of joy that took a pee on you while changing my diaper. The son you always wanted to have.

I guess the love you had for me wasn't enough for you to want to protect me. Why did you do it daddy? Why did you leave? Was I not cute enough? Did I do something wrong? I tried to keep your attention daddy. I tried to be the son you wanted. Was it mom? Was the alcohol stronger than your love for us?

I don't understand daddy why you couldn't stay. I needed you daddy. To hold me and to love me. To play catch with me daddy that would have been great. It would have been so much fun to run with you daddy. To be held up on your shoulders. I would have loved for you to chase the monsters away. You missed so much for the sake of a drink.

I grew up without you daddy. When I had my first home run you weren't there. When I made my first tackle you were nowhere to be found. I graduated daddy and looked up to see your proud smile and all i could see were strangers. I had a son daddy and needed your advice on how to be a good father but the room was always quiet. I got married daddy and I had to stand alone. She broke my heart daddy and you weren't there to help pick up the pieces. Why did you do it daddy? Why did you leave? I guess the thought of having to be strong for me was just too much.

You stopped drinking daddy cause you wanted to be my hero. Why did you go back to it and why did it have to kill you? So many years and you denied me so much. I am a man daddy. Father to three sons. They are happy and strong. You would be so proud of them. But they don't know you daddy. You aren't even a memory. you are just a story other people tell me to give me comfort.

I love you daddy and always will. Despite the pain and despite the loneliness of you being gone. I learned to be a father daddy. Better than you in many ways. Do you ever think of me daddy cause I always think of you......Love your son, YOU