Wandering thoughts.

I think of you constantly. Your smile ever present in my mind. A poet I may be but the words escape my lips when we speak. The words I need to express how I am truly starting to feel about you. I am scared at what may go wrong and wonder if I am strong enough to take the chance.

I know that if I don't take the chance that I am guaranteed that nothing will happen and life will go on as it always has. It's the what if that drives me on. What if you feel for me what I feel for you? What if you desire a future with me? What if you will truly see me?

I think about you many different times during the day. When I am happy I wonder if you are happy. When you are sad I feel the greatest desire to bring you the moon to make you feel better. It is an amazing feeling to have such hope, fear and ? in my heart. Will you feel the same? Will you fall into my arms the way I crave falling into yours? Only God truly knows but it would be nice if he would give me a hint.

I wonder how long I shall be left in the dark? Will it be a year or a day? The madness that is caused by the lack of knowledge is almost hard to take. Whatever shall I do? I guess the only thing I can do is pray. Pray that my heart is in the right hands this time.